Running for the Wagon

I had it in my hands today.

Last night I promised myself, and my wife, that there'd be no booze in the house anymore.

Woke up this morning, no alcohol in the house. Didn't drink. Had a great day with the wife & kid. Then I left around 3pm to take my bike to the shop and thought "great opportunity to sneak a beer or 2 at a bar". Walked past several bars on the way home from the bike shop and didn't go in. Resisted the temptation.

Then I thought that it would be fun to bring some vodka home. Bought a pint of Smirnoff and drinking it now. Wife is out with one of the girls. Son is sleeping.

I need to be done with this in 2008. Crossing over into 2009 as a drunk is not going to happen.

Time To Reinvent Myself

I've been a pretty heavy drinker since my late 20's. I'm in my early 40's now and it's time to stop. I tried to stop about a year ago, but gradually drifted back into my habits of drinking between 5-15 drinks a day. Recently it's gotten to the point that I'm drinking the moment I wake up.

It's making me fat, it's causing trouble in my marriage, it's making me ineffective at my job.

I'm not using booze, it's using me.

I was also a pretty heavy pot smoker for many years. I managed to put that down a few months ago, but when I did the boozing got heavier. When I stop doing one, I tend to start doing the other more. A big seesaw.

But what I'm trying to figure out is what to do with the time that I am going to have on my hands when I'm not spending my evenings and weekends loaded to the gills. Is life going to get boring?